11212009

I’ll actually update this with the past few workouts tonight! Because I know all 0 of you are on the edge of your seats with antici…

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10302009

Looks like I’m back up to 220 lbs. (100 kg). Hopefully that’s just water retention from the Epistane and/or increased carbs I’ve been playing around with.

10172009

1) Turns out Dad has, in addition to having a misshapen valve in his heart, an ENLARGED heart. He’s off to see a cardiologist later this week to decide the course of action.

2) On a less-important note, my Unemployment monetary assistance hasn’t yet been paid, so I get to go to the Department of Labour Monday to see what’s gone wrong. I’m hoping that, were my claim refused, I would have been notified directly, right?

3) Also Monday, starting the Westside. My joints request your prayers and well-wishes.

10092009

1) I’ll start keeping an actual log again the week after next; taking next week off to recouperate and try to decide on a fucking program. I’m thinking either Westside or 5/3/1 (it’s new, so of course I wanna jump on this bandwagon).

2) Even though it’s probably ultimately for the best and I should probably block it from my mind and move on, I can’t help but dwell on the firing situation and GET MORE AND MORE FUCKING PISSED OFF THE MORE I THINK ABOUT IT. GODDAMN IT, et cetera.

3) Totally lost my train of thought. That’ll teach me to switch tabs in the middle of updating.

09292009

ONE GODDAMN HOUR ON THE ELLIPTICAL AT 70+ RPM. FUCK YEAH.

09272009

Originally posted a couple of years ago:

I second guess myself/overanalyse far too much. I need to stop that and put some trust in this creativity/intelligence that I’m supposed to have. I’ve done some reading and thinking today, and I’m juggling some potential business ventures (to be unveiled… sometime) around in my head. Thus, I can’t let this “oh no, what if I fail” bullshit keep me from taking some risks.

I’ve really got nothing to lose as it is, anyway!

Most of that still rings true, but what the hell happened to those plans? I don’t even remember what all of them were, to be honest. Anyway, the Hot Topic job (or ANY job; Hot Topic just happened to be what came along) was intended to be used to FINANCE these plans, not become a substitute for them.

I’m gonna need to do some more brainstorming… and maybe soul-searching (it’s been a while since I’ve used that thing). I’ve gained a little business experience and a new way of looking at things, no matter how slight a change, so if anything I think I’m better equipped now (aside from forgetting what my ideas were) to do this than I was then.

THINKING for now. When I get back from my trip – whenever/wherever that may be – it will be time to IMPLEMENT somehow whatever ideas come about. Or attempt the original plan-within-a-plan of biding my time as an hourly wage slave until opportunity knocks… or at least passes by so I can jump through the window and tackle it.

I’m gonna try to chase some form of the goddamned American Dream, no matter how much bullshit it might be.

09252009

Holy shit. 212 mg/dL before lifting because I’d eaten some stuff I shouldn’t've (those damned SANDWICHES are apparently fucking dangerous. I hate the ‘beetus.), but after the lifting (erstwhile sipping on a protein shake) and 15 minutes steady-state ellipticalling, it was down to 82. No wonder I was feeling faint, with it dropping that quickly. Goddamn.

Still at 210 lbs. (95 kg) bodyweight, but I’m up to 6 chinups WITH strict form!

09212009

During lifting, I sipped on a “recovery drink” that included (among its 2 scoops) 28 g of sugar. I thought it would kill me, and to be fair, I did feel like embracing the sweet release of death during the workout because I hadn’t had an insulin spike like that in a looong time. BUT the results of the SCIENCE! were as follows (mg/dL; too lazy to convert to foreign measurements):

147 before leaving for the gym
196 after lifting (and finishing the shake), before cardio
136 after cardio
106 after the drive home

For reference (fasting levels), 80 – 120 is “normal,” the lower 70s is where people start feeling faint, and upper 120s and above is in official beetus territory.

Yeah, it got really high, but it went down pretty quickly (might be into the 90s or even 80s right now, but I don’t want to use any more expensive test strips tonight), so I think I might be able to properly conduct another Operation Adonis program and drop a lot more fat!

Wednesday or Friday I’m gonna try it with ONE scoop of the recovery thing and one scoop of straight whey and see where that leads me.

09192009

1) Rack pull with 350 lbs. (159 kg).
2) Blood sugar after lifting and cardio (only 10 minutes HIIT, 5 minutes steady-state because I simply couldn’t continue) was 91 mg/dL, even after having a handful of chips AND a damn hot dog (WITH bun and some ketchup) beforehand. Nice.
3) Hamstrings are REEEALLY sore and I may not be able to complete a squat or even walk correctly tomorrow. (That’s not what I initially meant to say here, but I already had the 3) typed out so I had to put something there)

09162009

(Not an official log, so it doesn’t get the proper date notation. )

Still not actually recording weights/reps, but I found out tonight that I can still bench 250 lbs. (113 kg) without much of a problem and can now do 6 chinups (on a related note, bodyweight was 210 lbs./95 kg when I checked earlier). Feeling pretty badass in spite of losing the job.